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Taken since 2003. Serious denial play since 2017.

I love when my Domme pulls my mouth where She wants me to serve Her. Press and pulls my head as She please.
May the edging begin.

So after a summer of toning my body with my Domme. We decided to change up our play a bit.

A new set of rule for this whole was made. We want all the tasks we do be extreme realistic.

We started full denial play in 2017, we tried some weird stuff, I got to know my limitations better and since the past few years we realised how our play takes our real life’s time.

My Domme likes to implement training and punishments and service that are doable, so She made some changes and here we go again.  

We love dice, so they will be our main routine.

Each month, unless She decide to do something new, we will put my dice set into great use. I got 12 dice from D3-D100, so anything She can think of with the numbers will be interesting.

Each month I will use randomly pick 2 numbers between 1-12. (1=D3 to 12=D100). The numbers will indicate the dices I end up with. 

And because we are very much into denial, the numbers from the dice will be how many days I’m in denial. If say I only got 3, that means the other 27 or 28 days I will on no touch, unless I can beg my Domme to have mercy. But it always comes with a great cause…

All edges has to be done between 10-18 in the day. There has to be at least 15min break between each edge. So if I’m working or in training, it’s going to be very tricky.  If I couldn’t finish all the edges, every undone edge will be 1 min of corner time for practical reasons.

The corner time must be done with Her on Skype monitoring me. I’m to be blindfolded with headphones on so She can command, insult, tease me any way She want.

She will decide how and where I do the corner time.

the bigger number die with be about my denial time, the smaller with edge numbers.

This month I got 5 (=D10)  and 7 (=D20)

D 20 will be throw for the days I’m going to edge without orgasm. I got only 6!!! So many no touch days…

D 10 will be the amount of edges I do in a day. I got 9.

I didn’t know the rules until my Domme sent them today after 18 o’clock!!!!!! Aaargh, it’s never fair play with our Dommes is it?!

It means I have no edges at all today. Which means I only get to touch my pussy 5 days in this month…. I’m so horny just to think about the the empty days. I have been horny all winter because I wasn’t able to do anything due to the fact I was sick.

My Domme orgasm tortured me all day on her last day here on 3rd of December. My clit was so sour for a week after that. But it made my greedy and horny, and I’m not allowed to cum since.

I begged and begged and begged Her on Skype to at least let me have something on my pussy. My Domme decided for the 9 min corner time, She will have me stand tiptoed with my least favourite dildo in my pussy. Also it has to be lubed. I will be able to hear the timer in my ear when time’s up.

I have to open my arms to my side as far as I can, and hold a penny against the wall with each of my pinky. If the pennies or the dildo fell off, or my heal touch the floor during that time, I have to snap my clit 50 times with a rubber band in front of Her and counting each snap.

Of course I failed… My Domme lovingly plays porn in the back ground, I was aroused and wet and lubed and struggling to keep the dildo in me, I don’t know when my legs started shaking and I started sweating (My Domme said it was only around 3 or 4 min in), my Domme started laughing and taunting me which made me more distracted and my heal touched the floor and I dropped my dildo. I was a mess, my bathroom floor was a mess…

The snapping broke me completely. I was laying on my back, with my legs open on the wall, By number 20, I was crying in pain, but the pain slut in me was still aroused. The pace went slower and slower, by number 40 I really need to pee, and my Domme said either I hold it until I’m done, or pee as I snap my clit because She doesn’t have all night (awesome time differences, people…). I lost control of my bladder muscle on number 43, by then I was subbing and peeing and trying to count. I was fucked up and done.

I was in my own body fluids in fetal pose in the end. It took my a while before I came out, and my Domme praised me. I took a long hot shower and feeling fresh and ready for 2020!

I’m soaking wet again writing this down and my clit and pussy is throbbing and in pain at the same time, I can’t close my legs…

I hope your first day went as messy as mine. I hope I can keep posting to entertain you this year. I’m going to sign off and ice my pussy until I sleep. 

long break done.

hello there, are you all well? this is not going to be a kinky one, but tomorrow’s will be.

It was a disappointing year for my D/s training. Not in other relationships though. Also no worries, i still have the same perverted Domme, it’s just we couldn’t really play until now.
We meet this summer again for almost a month. It was intense and emotionally recharging but also physically exhausting. I was fucked good, whipped ripe, controlled senseless and my sub space was reseted good. But I guess it’s was too much and overwhelming to document. 
Then I was sick, not the life threatening kind, but enough to kill all the buzz and my Domme even came across the continent to comfort me for another week. When I finally is ready to share all the things I did, it’s already the end of the year.
My Domme and I decided to start a new round fresh. If there are things that was linked to the summer training sessions, I will make a note. 
This has been left untented also because the limitations in tumblr is more or less a buzz killer. Bdsmlr is the second best thing, but they also needed time to develop. 
Anyways, it’s almost the turning of the decade. I wish y’all had a better summer and autumn than I did. I hope y’all had fun and all are ready to move into a new year!
Happy new year my pervs! See y’all in 2020!   

If there was ever an ass in need of some marks on it... 

Real story: Domme: yes it's heavier than it looks. Your corner time is 30min, if your ass drops it, it's 30 whips and time start again. Here, lets rub some massage oil on that ass, I love when you ass glimpsing under th light. After 2 and half hours, my ass ached for a week and I realize my ass will clinch when anything was touching it...

Mommy I know I was a bad girl... can I make it up to you? 

My face when i fail or was a brat or was lazy, and my Mistress knows.
Plugged, air humping fuck toy training

August is HERE!!!

My Domme and I will meet again for holidays! This time we don’t have a month only one and a half weeks. But gawd it’s a blessing! I’m heading off tomorrow and will probably again disappear until I have time to write when I’m back home.

But to keep you pervs entertained, I’ll sum up what has happened in July.

I’m using butt plugs as much as I can in July, my Domme says that since we don’t have that much time together, She needs me to be prepared as much as I can before we meet. I was able to handle the small anchor pretty well, so on my birthday, my Domme allowed me to cum with my ass plugged while humping  a yoga roll!! Of course I’m not allowed to tough my clit at all. I can, though, play the plug as much as I want. I had few ruins here and there so my body does know how to cum properly this time. It was a huge one. I don’t remember when was the last time I had one like this. I was screaming even with the balcony door open, I don’t care anymore, I had no dignity. I was clawing the floor, whimpering and moaning and slobbering in my mouth.I kept rubbing the poor roll until my pussy was soar. I was slipping in my sweat, contracting for the next hour… I think I passed out for a few minutes, I came to with my pathetic pussy will grinding and spasming on the yoga roll. I got up after half an hour or so. Still contracting and shaking for a while… After I thanked my Domme, she said that probably will be the last full one this year…

About the butt plugs, I’m still learning how to get use to it. Some days are great, some days it just won’t work. My Domme allows me to rub my clit only if I have difficulties to plug in. Horny makes everything easier and that is a fact.

I was supposed to switch to bigger plugs every week, so by the second week I was on the middle sized plug, but I was not able to get the big one in on the third week so I need to stretch my hole with the middle plug longer. After 2 weeks of almost daily stretch, I can put the big one in with the help of so much lube and edging myself constantly. 

My Domme wants me to have the big plug in when we meet tomorrow. So I’m stretching as I’m typing and I’m making so much typos I can’t even…

Also, my Domme wants me to be Her fuck machine. We do this all the time when we are together, hence all the hump training I have. 

So my Domme can cum vaginally… I can’t. This has been an awesome aspect in our relationship. I’m being tease so much and also had to watch her explode while i’m struggling with ‘almost there but never get there’ moments. Usually she will cum few times at least while playing with me, when I usually cum only once or always barely there… It makes me needy and super horny that leads to denied or ruined orgasms. Sometime to the point I cry and hump in frustration which will requires longer time of after care. And still horny because no orgasm release.

Anyways, back to the holiday plan. So I think either She is stressed or horny, because fuck machine play means I’m fucking Her and sometime I get a bit nervous cause I don’t know if I can satisfy Her.

I have been doing fuck training with a strap-on all July. It’s humiliating when you have nothing on the other end of the dildo. My Domme would send me cock hero vids with different lengths every day and I need to be able to hump as fast as some dude would stroke their dicks. I’m usually dripping from my pussy and slippery and dripping sweat and so frustrated and exhausted, I fell asleep a few times on the floor in my body fluids…

I think I can pretty much keep up with the tempo, my ass is looking good as a side benefit. And I need to sign off.

Happy summer and happy humping peeps.

June, hole training, denial and the grind

So all June, 30days. No matter if I'm on my periods or has stomach problems or lazy minds. June was to push over the limits.

First I have to explain a little how it all works. Few people asked me about my denial, how can I last a year and how do I do it alone without my Domme.

Well I think first you need to be a slut. Which I am, one big denial whore. That makes the half the success of long term denial. 

Second, you have to have the mentality. I have mentioned before I'm an amateur athlete. If you are training, maybe the first few months you need a coach, a trainer or teammates, but when it start to be a habit, when you have a routine, like doing work outs in the gym or jogging certain times a week or weight training, you do it systematically and independently. If you don't do any type of sport, then think about your habit that you will do no matter what, like shopping or cleaning or anything that is in your daily routine. You don't think it's hard or you actually don't think about it at all. You, just do it. 

That what my denial trainings are like.

I don't build up a courage or count to 10 before I go. I just do. 

So JuNo was the month. My Domme asked to get used to the plugs. This is a bitch though, it really is something so new. I try a bit now and then but it still is hard all through June for me to accept it. Also I just can't fit anything in my pussy after have my ass plugged, even with the slimest one. 

Ass holes are hard to handle, double standards intended. 

But I did still have a few ruins. While grinding anything. I'm still not good at riding the edge. My cooling down time is too long... Which is very frustrating for me. My Domme on the other hand loves it when I got over and apologize and ask for punishments. 

For June I can only grind on dildos. The fastest way for me to get to the edge would be having it sick on wall or window surfaces that is just the height of my pussy. 

Hardest is probably the same places but standing doggy style, I can get the dildo on my clit and it just end up taking so long my legs start to get shaky and I end up panting on the floor. 

For every failed edge and ruin. I need to mark down and my Domme will let me know in a few days what she has planned for me in her evil erotic mind... 

So I used the 10 side die to decide how many edges for the day and the 100 side die for how many strokes will each edging be. Use a radomn generator of places of a house to see where the dildo is and a coi. To see if I'm facing or backing for my position. 

I know, it's a lot... But remember do this just the way you would plan a workout session or a daily routine. Then it's not as overwhelming it may be. 

Fail means either I didn't get to edge after all the strokes, like if I get a 5, there is no way I can even begin my frustration, or if I can't do all the strokes because my body can't continue. A ruin, is just what it means, I can't control my clit from betraying me. 

I edged 133 times in June. 

I failed 47 times and had 12 ruins. 

An extra punishment will also be added due to fact I'm reporting so little during the past few months. 

July started. I will try to get as much writing in the future as possible because I never stopped denial and edging and submissions. 

I wish y'all a great summer. 

Happy humping and horny on. 

Summer shame

So this is a summer that's gonna be warm. My Domme has made plans for me, according to her, since last summer.... 

June is such a great month for denail sluts. We have been playing JuNo since we knew about it. Of course June will be horny with heat. This June, if the temperature goes bove 25c, I need to go commando to work whether in pants or skirts, it's good for me, She said, I will feel cooler. So like now, I'm on the buss in one of my dark thin summer pants feeling every fiber of the teasing fabric brushing my pussy and ass and praying I don't have a visible wet spot until I get home from a 8 hour work day... 

All my edges will be grinding on a dildo attached anywhere my Domme orders me to attach it. Also with a dildo in my pussy at the same time so my hole will not be 'lonely'. This will also be my daily workout too, since never will I have only one edge. I will have to tell her by the end of the month which position is more humiliating, which is most difficult, which is easiest to get to the edge. 

I have a tiny bit of tingling in my brain these data will not be reported for nothing.... 

Happy summer and humpin' on, sluts.