If there was ever an ass in need of some marks on it...
Mommy I know I was a bad girl... can I make it up to you?
I think we’re on to something here…
sometimes, I would have a vibrator in my pussy, sometimes my Domme will use my pussy juice to circle my hole. Or she will just sit with her bookmand casully finger me or edge me. If the glass shifts It’s an hour of corner time of me kneeling and writing ‘ I will learn how to a useful slut and keep still’ with the paper against the wall. Or if her drink spills, it would be 50 rubber band snaps on my clit counted out ‘one, I’m sorry I can’t do simple tasks’. If I miss counted we start over again. Once I end up have 80, and was in pain for 2 weeks. I would still spill Her drink uselessly but I never miss counted again.
So all June, 30days. No matter if I'm on my periods or has stomach problems or lazy minds. June was to push over the limits.
First I have to explain a little how it all works. Few people asked me about my denial, how can I last a year and how do I do it alone without my Domme.
Well I think first you need to be a slut. Which I am, one big denial whore. That makes the half the success of long term denial.
Second, you have to have the mentality. I have mentioned before I'm an amateur athlete. If you are training, maybe the first few months you need a coach, a trainer or teammates, but when it start to be a habit, when you have a routine, like doing work outs in the gym or jogging certain times a week or weight training, you do it systematically and independently. If you don't do any type of sport, then think about your habit that you will do no matter what, like shopping or cleaning or anything that is in your daily routine. You don't think it's hard or you actually don't think about it at all. You, just do it.
That what my denial trainings are like.
I don't build up a courage or count to 10 before I go. I just do.
So JuNo was the month. My Domme asked to get used to the plugs. This is a bitch though, it really is something so new. I try a bit now and then but it still is hard all through June for me to accept it. Also I just can't fit anything in my pussy after have my ass plugged, even with the slimest one.
Ass holes are hard to handle, double standards intended.
But I did still have a few ruins. While grinding anything. I'm still not good at riding the edge. My cooling down time is too long... Which is very frustrating for me. My Domme on the other hand loves it when I got over and apologize and ask for punishments.
For June I can only grind on dildos. The fastest way for me to get to the edge would be having it sick on wall or window surfaces that is just the height of my pussy.
Hardest is probably the same places but standing doggy style, I can get the dildo on my clit and it just end up taking so long my legs start to get shaky and I end up panting on the floor.
For every failed edge and ruin. I need to mark down and my Domme will let me know in a few days what she has planned for me in her evil erotic mind...
So I used the 10 side die to decide how many edges for the day and the 100 side die for how many strokes will each edging be. Use a radomn generator of places of a house to see where the dildo is and a coi. To see if I'm facing or backing for my position.
I know, it's a lot... But remember do this just the way you would plan a workout session or a daily routine. Then it's not as overwhelming it may be.
Fail means either I didn't get to edge after all the strokes, like if I get a 5, there is no way I can even begin my frustration, or if I can't do all the strokes because my body can't continue. A ruin, is just what it means, I can't control my clit from betraying me.
I edged 133 times in June.
I failed 47 times and had 12 ruins.
An extra punishment will also be added due to fact I'm reporting so little during the past few months.
July started. I will try to get as much writing in the future as possible because I never stopped denial and edging and submissions.
I wish y'all a great summer.
Happy humping and horny on.
So this is a summer that's gonna be warm. My Domme has made plans for me, according to her, since last summer....
June is such a great month for denail sluts. We have been playing JuNo since we knew about it. Of course June will be horny with heat. This June, if the temperature goes bove 25c, I need to go commando to work whether in pants or skirts, it's good for me, She said, I will feel cooler. So like now, I'm on the buss in one of my dark thin summer pants feeling every fiber of the teasing fabric brushing my pussy and ass and praying I don't have a visible wet spot until I get home from a 8 hour work day...
All my edges will be grinding on a dildo attached anywhere my Domme orders me to attach it. Also with a dildo in my pussy at the same time so my hole will not be 'lonely'. This will also be my daily workout too, since never will I have only one edge. I will have to tell her by the end of the month which position is more humiliating, which is most difficult, which is easiest to get to the edge.
I have a tiny bit of tingling in my brain these data will not be reported for nothing....
Happy summer and humpin' on, sluts.