This may not be a ‘hot and sexy’ post, but life sometimes is not just that~
As submissive as one can be, we are still human.
I’m not a brat-type of a sub, I can submit without ropes, the early years of play has molded my instincts. But these years alone of only playing online with my Domme has made me: Lazy. Slow. Disappointing. I’m a bit perfectionist with any tasks but if there are real-life schedule, I will put submission behind.
On the way to our getaway place, it’s proven I lack so much. So we started from the beginning, a routine that will make me stop thinking, only do.
My Domme made a daily schedule for me to follow. Like the agreement, I don’t have any saying in what I wear, eat and drink, also She has my phone so if there were anything urgent She will let me know, otherwise I have no connection to the outside world, so there is nothing I need to focus except submitting to Her.
6:30: Wake up, sit cross-legged outside and meditate, I should empty my mind and only focus on us and the day.
We set an insect net on the patio for my meditation and corner times, let’s be real peeps, being naked and eaten by insects is not fun, the place was private enough but people might still see me if they get close enough to the cottage, it was fantastic for humiliation training. With the heat of this summer, I probably have spent half of the time in there…
7: lick my Domme until she is awake and orders me to stop. I will write anything that was not about us and this trip during meditation while she makes us breakfast.
The first week was full of thoughts… unnecessary pathetic worries which died down as my edging and conditioning went up.
8-10: breakfast, bathroom turns, clean myself for play.
If I was ready before 10, I will kneel out on the patio to wait for my Domme.
10-12: Doing my tasks from my Domme.
Usually, this was deep conditioning time, like posture training, command training that I should have like an instinct, I was so slow at the beginning that the first few days I was whipped constantly and have collected so much corner time.
12-14: Lunchtime. Do anything my Domme wants me to do.
14-15: 30: workouts and clean up.
We use a lot of training sets from @edgercise , thank you for the great routines.
15:30-16: nap or cuddle with my Domme.
This was the time for me to collect myself if I have had too many emotions built up. The task and exercises usually make me into horny whimpering and a lot of times a crying mess, so this was our aftercare time. I usually fall asleep from exhaustion… Remember to have this in whatever D/s relationships you have.
16-22: random things we might do in the vanilla world, including dinner. I was randomly ordered to edge, ruin, and play myself or be played by my Domme.
22- next morning: my bedtime. I need to be either on my mattress alone or be played by my Domme if she wants, then I will have eye mask and laying down whether I really sleep or not.
Unless allowed, I don’t have bed and clothes privileges, the summer was hot enough to keep me healthy on the floor, I sleep on a mattress at the foot of the bed, so I won’t disturb my Domme in the morning when I’m buzzed awake. I have a bed sheet to cover up if needed.
It took me a week to finally set in.
Everything was easy to dive into except the waking up and sleeping. It’s hard, the first few days were really hard. My lifestyle was not so unhealthy but it wasn’t this limited either. The sudden change left me hanging. I was whipped, slapped, zapped and corner timed so much…